I Still Haven’t Figured Out A Newsletter On This Website

I really want to get into the habit of more regular posts, but unfortunately, since October of 2025 I have been in a flare. Not only that, but up until the end of March I had 3, sometimes more than 3, doctors appointments a week. When I moved to Denmark, and left the United States to support my long distance partner while he is in school getting his masters degree, I had hoped that the health care here would be better. All I knew about it was that it was socialized, which meant it was free, and more accessible than the care I had in the United States (which was very little to none, and prohibitively expensive.) If you have no interest in listening to me ramble about what that has been like, skip ahead to ‘Cozy Library Press’. If you DO read ahead, please note the content contains words about sexual trauma, and a traumatic medical experience.

Disability and Doctors Appointments

I’m going to ramble for a little bit about my issues, and what I’ve been going through here. Before I moved here, I knew I had endometriosis, Lupus, and some sort of digestive issue. If you are unfamiliar with how having a chronic illness works, it can be hell to receive treatment. Most doctors specialize in one specific area, and refer you out for tests, which are looked at by someone else, who reports back to your doctor. A lot of these issues are like putting on a blindfold and throwing darts at a board and hoping to find and treat the issue. I do not have anything that is resolvable. At this point in my life, I’m looking at managing these issues, and making myself as comfortable as possible. We also have not really uncovered everything there is to treat. Chronic autoimmune illnesses are often comorbid and interlinked, because the parts of your body or system that controls them are interconnected. One issue can cause an avalanche of issues, which is why you get people with 4 or 5 different things going on. I am not going to explain in detail what I have or what my symptoms are but if you are nosy or just curious you can click these following underlined abbreviations and words to check out their wikipedia articles. MCAS, LUPUS, ENDOMETRIOSIS, ME/CFS.

I’ve been basically put through a medical humiliation ritual trying to seek help. I have to go to my GP, who will then refer me out to a specialist, who I have to convince to treat me. Because Denmark operates under a socialist model, there are several people I have to convince that I am sick enough for help. I have been told point blank, that I have to convince my doctor it is worth it for them to spend money on me. The systems here are set up to only benefit able bodied, danish speaking citizens. Because of this I have to keep scheduling appointments, and basically harass them to get care. My issues with eating have gotten pretty severe, to the point where I’m on almost an entirely liquid diet. Solid food, and carbs just do not agree with me. When trying to get an endoscopy and colonoscopy, I had to come in and let the doctor insert a finger into my rectum before she would approve a colonoscopy to make sure it’s necessary. I have both sexual trauma, and medical trauma, and any sort of insertion triggers “endo” episodes, all of which was explained to her. No exceptions were made for me, and it was even worse when I went in for my procedure. Dear reader, I told them ahead of time I needed to be sedated. When I got there they separated me from Jun, and then did not sedate me. I requested a female doctor, and was not granted this. When my doctor when to insert the tube into my asshole, he did so by grabbing and ripping the back of my pants. The tube hurt real bad, and I had to cry and beg for him to use a smaller one instead of continually forcing the one he was using in. They also did not take biopsies as I was told they would, so I essentially was tortured by the state, but atleast it was free! The upside though is, if anyone needs a sensitivity reader for monster romance I now have intimate knowledge of what having my guts rearranged feels like. I’m a little bit terrified to get any more procedures done, and considering just toughing it out. If you want to and are able to, I do have a disability wishlist for things to make my life easier. You can find that by clicking here.

Both my joint and ligament doctor, and my endometriosis doctor brushed me off. The former told me that I have a slipped and torn disc I just have to learn to live with, as well as spondylosis of the neck as a result of long term damage of osteoarthritis, something I also have to live with. I’ve been seeking physical therapy and pain management which are both extremely hard to obtain here. The wait list is long, and the danish government audits doctors and punishes them for prescribing pain management, so if the government does not think its necessary for me to have, then I just gotta raw dog this shit. I was told my disease “doesn’t seem to be active” so despite flare ups, pain, joint issues, getting worse with the rain, there is “nothing to be done” and PT is only for danish speakers. I’m sure I don’t need to explain to you why this is racist and prohibitive. I did go back to my GP and beg for a referral to a pain clinic, which she granted, but only after letting me know that my joint and ligament doctor determined my pain was all in my head so I needed to try an SNRI if I wanted the referral. She was also able to get me on the wait list for PT for english speakers after being denied by my specialist at the hospital. My endometriosis specialist sent me an e-mail saying my MRI was clean, so she has no idea why I’m in pain, and good luck. A fucking joke, as endo does not show up on scans. In order to get ANY of this help though, and any testing done, I’ve had to show up for appointments multiple times, and continue to bother them, and often times I’ve had to go to a specialist, get sent back to my GP, and go to a new specialist. As of now though, I am taking a break from all that and just rotting in bed at home. It’s exhausting, it cuts into Jun’s school work, and it leaves us emotionally drained.

Disability advocacy is incredibly important to me. I see a lot of my friends, who align themselves on the side of human rights, but don’t wear masks, or make their gatherings accessible. I also see people wanting community, but not willing to put in the work, or host. I desperately need all my able bodied friends to get more radical now. You need to be testing and masking, and you need to make sure group events are accessible to your friends who are vulnerable. This is something I’ll repeat over and over until I die. I also want to take a moment to gush about, and thank my partner. I do not know how much worse off I would be right now without Jun. He has been the breadwinner, working his ass off to get his masters degree and cover all of our bills. My entire income is through book sales, and commissions, two things I’ve been struggling with. Because of the amazon boycott, and itchio going down, my sales have stagnated SO badly. My works are dungeoned, or delisted, and I’m super slow with drawing coms right now because both of my shoulders keep subluxating. Jun is an angel, and not only is he handsome and smart, he doesn’t judge me or make me feel guilty. He truly is my soulmate, and I can’t believe I have gotten so lucky.

Cozy Library Corner Press

On to the good news of what I’ve been able to get done though since I am back home! If you backed the Tales Of The Tongue kickstarter, there will be an update soon on the kickstarter. Backer surveys went out recently, and I have samples of all the rewards on their way. I’m so excited, and Jun has been busy formatting. The paperback looks SEXY, and the hardcover even more so. We’ll be uploading the files in the next few days. The process is taking longer than we anticipated, but considering the entire admin team and most of the authors are disabled I think we’re doing pretty good. I can’t talk about what is going to come next from CLC, but it’s a fucking huge project and I think a lot of you are going to shit your pants about it. I really hope we are able to pull it off. I have an excellent team though, I love everyone I get to work with SO MUCH. Uhg.

Publishing, Zines and WIPs

I recently published “CRUSHED PLUMS” my first sapphic novella, and SHE HAS A PAPERBACK NOW! Here is my universal link for the ebook and paperback. You can also pre order a signed paperback through my SHOP button directly from me. Since then I have been working on several WIPS. The two closest to completion are NATUREZA MORTA, Still Water and Afterbirth are being re-edited, and formatted into a much asked for paperback. I also recently got the rights back to my scavengerpunk hopecore sci-fi piece that was in Reverent: An Anthology of Divinity curated by Quinton Li. I’m expanding on the story and making it weirder and more sad, and will be rereleasing it as a novella length paperback and ebook. I’ve got several other WIPs up my sleeve, including a horse based horror, a sweaty backrooms arcade thriller, and more. I’ve been wanting to write SO badly, and trying to get a few words in when my health allows it.

If you need to fill that sweet empty hole in yourself with Wolfe content sooner than I can publish, you are IN LUCK! I’ve release several free to read zines, with more than one way to enjoy them. I’ve been exploring different avenues of art and ways to create and express myself. Something I have found quite enjoyable is making these little mixed media zines. Unfortunately, physical copies can currently only be obtained at in person events, or by sending me a message and begging in a most humiliating manor. If you check out the top tab of my website, there is a ZINE page, but I’ll also put the links down below. I’ve got a free to read PDF, or you can pay what you want / donate if you are feeling generous. I also made an online interactive page for each zine for you to flip through.
Interact with I Want To Romanticize You ★ Interact with Just A Dream ★ Interact with t4t
These were all made using different techniques, from using an old digital camera from the 2000s, to cut and paste old school methods that I then scanned in. I fucking love free will.

I did not personally publish this, but I wanted to give a shout out to my friend Rain Corbyn and their newly launched Haruspex Audio. I DID get to do the logo, which was very fun and I’m super proud of it. DRM-Free audio books, more money to the authors and narrators, and more indie books produced as audio books. I HIGHLY recommend checking it out.
https://haruspex-audio.com/

Shop Drop

If that’s not enough for you I have a SHOP DROP with stickers, keychains, notepads washi tape and more. I know y’all love little treats. These items will only be available until the 10th. THEY WILL NOT BE COMING BACK TO THE SHOP. So pre-order or hit the road!!!! I have information about international shipping up on my shop so PLEASE make sure you read it.
I wanted to fool around with making some OCs, and art that was not part of a greater universe or story line. I still could not help giving stories to the images and characters I put up though. I’ve got a cool anomaly collection with backstories listed alongside the prints, and I#m doing a SEVEN DEADLY SINS collection as well. Right now Pride and Envy are up for pre-order, and if you want to collect all seven you’ll have to get these two before they’re gone.

The Canis Lupus Report

My podcast is currently on hiatus. I’ve been TRYING to record it, but I can’t until the audio lab is back up and running. The Kitchen, which is the collective Jun is part of that offers resources like the audio lab, has moved buildings, and we e-mail every month. If I could afford it I would just build a little box and get a microphone to record, but I’d rather wait for the free resources. You can listen to the first four chapter though! Check out The Canis Lupus Report

Golden Showers

I literally have so much to update, even I’ve surprised myself. I really do have my hands in 20 projects. Speaking of which, if you are into pee, you can join me for Golden Spring Showers which is the pee-themed writing event I’m hosting starting April 15th. You have three months to write and publish a book, the only rules are it has to fit the theme, and you have to do it during the dash. There is no word count, genre, or rules on how you decide to interpret the theme. I’m really hoping folks get weird with it and take it in different directions, it doesn’t have to be kinky, it can be set in a bathroom, it can have a cat that likes to spray, it can go all Paradise Rot and just have an MC who thinks about pee a lot. Genuinely, I love the ways people decide to challenge the theme. I haven’t done as much promo on it as I would have liked to (see above, I am so sick) but I’m still very excited about it, and a little bowel pain, inability to eat, fused spine, slipped disc, brain fog, extreme fatigue wasn’t gonna keep me down. I’m telling myself that the small group we have for this years dash is on purpose, it’s intimate, just like peeing on someone. You can join the MM discord, or check out the forms (linked below)
discord.gg/monstermanor
https://monstermanor.org/dashes/index.php

Books, Movies, Music

Rapid Fire Media wrap up!
What I’ve Been Reading
– The October Film Haunt by Michael Wehunt, a fun meta final girl horror book for genre lovers
– Pizza Girl by Jean Kyoung Frazier, short weird girl litfic about obsession and milfs
– The ‘Themis Files’ series by Silvain Neuvel, A sci-fi trilogy I couldn’t put down told in found fiction style about giant alien robots
– The Tusks Of Extinction by Ray Nayler, this was so fucking good and left me feeling abysmal
– The Dead Take The A Train by Richard Kadrey and Cassandra Khaw, OVER TOO FAST, this was SO fun, cosmic horror with a loveable fuck up
– Patricia Wants to Cuddle by Samantha Allen, lesbians and cryptids in a fun campy horror with gore that made me gag a little bit
– Midnight At The Cinema Palace by Christopher Tradowsky, This was a great, touching read.
– The Cursed House by Del Sandeen, gothic horror lovers GET ON THIS NOW
– Sour Candy by Kealan Patrick Burke, weird cosmic horror. Quick read, made me want sour patch kids.
– Ghost Eaters bz Clay McLeod Chapman, I really enjoyed this, it kind of reminded me of an adult version of Holly Black’s ‘Valiant’.
– We Used To Live Here, I loved this. I made Yune read it. If you liked the movie Mother! with jennifer Lawrence pick this up.
– Dogs by C. Mallon, this book made me sick to my fucking stomach. Highly recommend. Wildly upsetting.
– Herculine by Grace Byron – Trans girl sex demon cult. Pick it up.
– When No One is Watching by Alyssa Cole, this was SO fucking good and I recommend reading about Henrietta Lacks After
There is more than this that I read since the last time I talked with y’all but this list is getting long! Let me know if recs are something you want from me?

What I’ve Been Watching
– Binge watched all of the seasons of Yellow Jackets
– Honey Bunch, it has a bad description but it’s really good with a very satisfying ending
– Pillion, loved it, put the audio book on hold
– Die My Love, Jennifer Lawrence is my BPD princess

What I’ve Been Listening To
– https://blessingjolie.bandcamp.com/album/20nothing
– https://music.apple.com/us/album/mustard-single/1839605694
– https://spencerkwatts.bandcamp.com/
– https://beckss.bandcamp.com/

What I’ve Been Playing
– CorpoNation: The Sorting Process, for fans of severence
– Pokemon: Leaf Green
– Kabuto Park